I miss you.

How many times has anyone of us said " I miss you" in our lives? I am sure we've said it a lot! And I am sure it was heartfelt every single time.

It is one thing to miss someone because you are physically away from them, be it family, close friends or someone dear but it is way different to miss some one because they are not in the world anymore. 

I miss my uncle. I miss him because he is no more. I miss him because he was fun, he was the happiest person I knew.He was a very practical person and had the most vibrant personality I had known. I was very attached to him. Even today,almost four years later when I think of him, I know that 'the fact' that he isn't around  hasn't sunk in yet. I have learnt, and learnt the hard way,that death is a big deal, it is HUGE! It is hard to take.

For me, he was the person in my family who I could go and ask for anything and be sure he will get it for me just because I wanted it. He was more a friend than an uncle. He was my COOL Uncle! I know that for the 19 odd years I knew and spent with him, he has taught me a lot. In spite of all his health issues and other problems in life, he never cribbed, he was always cheerful and accepted everything with a smile. 

I thought of him today  yet again and knew I missed him more than ever. I wish I could tell him that I did. There is I believe NO worse feeling than this. The feeling you get when you can't tell someone you miss them because they are not around, because they are dead. I also wanted to tell him that he is my Hero. He will always be :) I wish I live my life half as cheerful and happy as he did. Life is special, the lesser we crib and live it like my uncle did, the happier we will be.

Cheers to life!